Seems to me like you get to decide for yourself who you care about, [ Toph says with perfect bluntness. She notices and files away the mention that Sandry's an orphan. ]
So what if the memories were fake? You aren't. You can do whatever you want with them.
[ Sandry sits quietly for a minute. She can tell that Toph will give her space to think and process. And it's a lot to think about. What if Kotetsu and Mitama don't want to dwell on the past few weeks? What then? Sandry... she'll understand. She doubts she will ever not think of them with love, but she'll understand.
Finally Sandry gives a nod. ]
Yes, you're right. I can still love them if I want. I don't have to stop.
[ Sure enough, she waits through Sandry thinking it over without any sense of urgency. Toph isn't comfortable throwing around the L-word that casually, but she isn't going to tell someone else they can't use it. ]
Nobody gets to tell you how you should feel about something, Sandry. If anyone tried telling me, I'd smack them.
[ Probably completely true. There's an unflinching straightforwardness to how Toph takes everything, and that includes her feelings. Even if she acts put-upon and embarrassed talking about them sometimes, that doesn't mean she's about to apologize for any of it or, even worse, ask permission. ]
[ Sandry actually gives a small laugh at that. It's barely more than just some puffs of air, but it's unmistakably a laugh. She can picture it, Toph just reaching up and smacking someone full force. ]
You're right. No one can tell me how I feel about things. I do, and that's how it is.
[ It's a bit wavery, but Sandry sounds resolute in that statement. ]
[ That gets a giggle out of Sandry. Once again Toph reminds her of Briar. Tris would have practically stormed out of the room at such a declaration.
Sandry places a teacup in front of Toph. ]
Okay, I won't bring it up again. Probably.
[ She reaches for the woven cloth and pulls it towards her. She knows Toph can't see the colors, but it also means she can't see the way the color in the blocks seems to shift, as if it weren't really one color. Her voice is a little quiet again when she speaks. ]
I knew the answer, truthfully. The first thing I did after my memories return was to spin and weave. I can't believe I went a whole month without it.
[ She accepts her tea cup with good grace, not as disgruntled over being made to acknowledge their friendship out loud as she puts across. There's just no reason to sit around talking about their sappy feelings.
Toph takes a sip as she listens. ]
Being without my bending sucked, [ she answers in blunt agreement. ] Did it feel really different to you, too, when it came back?
[ Hard to deny the truth of it when the whole world felt different to her. ]
[ Sandry begins to shake her head and then shrugs. ]
It was like I found a piece of my heart again. I love my magic, it's part of who I am. I didn't understand it when it came back to me at the end of the month, but now I do. I hope I never lose it again.
[ Sandry takes a sip of some tea while thinking about that. ]
How did they change my memories like that? Why did I have to go through the exercise of weaving them when other people aren't confused like this? I don't understand.
[ Sandry sounds equally frustrated. It's just not fair. ]
... I really wanted it to be true, [ Toph says quietly, with total honesty. ] It didn't make sense to me that I could be the person I thought I was. I think that probably helped me a lot.
I got a spinning wheel so I pictured my two different memories while spinning and spun them into thread. Then I wove the thread into separate blocks and separated them with a border of plain thread. I wasn't sure if it would work but my mind was much clearer after that. I did something similar with magic before, separating it out like that.
It's not very practical, it only works for me. I don't think I could do it for someone else. I suppose it's a bit of a clever way to solve the problem, but only because it worked. You should see the things my sister Tris can do! Or Briar, or Daja. Tris is a weather mage, Briar is a plant mage, and Daja is a smithing mage. Tris can summon lightning bolts and holds tidal power in her hair, Briar can talk to plants and make them grow, and Daja created living metal. Though I suppose that last one was an accident.
Okay, I'm definitely obligated to say the living metal is the coolest one.
[ For obvious reasons. The rest of it all sounds different but similar to bending, or at least not out of the realm of stories. Also, Sandry going on about her siblings is cute, not that Toph's gonna say that. It's a nice change from her earlier sadness over her fake memories. ]
But usually the really impressive bending is the subtle stuff, so I'm guessing it's the same way for magic.
[ Sandry completely expects this. For obvious reasons. Daja's living metal is cool. The things she can do with it are even cooler. ]
Yes, it's like that, but also not? Daja made a prosthetic leg for someone with her living metal. I think that's not very subtle, though it had lots of details.
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So what if the memories were fake? You aren't. You can do whatever you want with them.
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Finally Sandry gives a nod. ]
Yes, you're right. I can still love them if I want. I don't have to stop.
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Nobody gets to tell you how you should feel about something, Sandry. If anyone tried telling me, I'd smack them.
[ Probably completely true. There's an unflinching straightforwardness to how Toph takes everything, and that includes her feelings. Even if she acts put-upon and embarrassed talking about them sometimes, that doesn't mean she's about to apologize for any of it or, even worse, ask permission. ]
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You're right. No one can tell me how I feel about things. I do, and that's how it is.
[ It's a bit wavery, but Sandry sounds resolute in that statement. ]
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Yeah, and if you need me to smack anyone for you, I'm so ready.
[ A beat of silence before she admits, a little gruffly, ] You were really nice to me while we were like that. I'm not going to just forget it.
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I'll keep that in mind. I think you'd almost like to have an excuse to smack someone.
[ Now that Toph is seated Sandry reaches for the teapot and begins pouring tea. ]
And of course I was really nice, I think we're friends, and that's what friends are for.
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[ No 'almost' about it, Sandry!
Then she makes it awkward with the straightforward declaration of friendship. Toph scrunches up her face. ]
We're friends, just don't get all mushy about it.
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Sandry places a teacup in front of Toph. ]
Okay, I won't bring it up again. Probably.
[ She reaches for the woven cloth and pulls it towards her. She knows Toph can't see the colors, but it also means she can't see the way the color in the blocks seems to shift, as if it weren't really one color. Her voice is a little quiet again when she speaks. ]
I knew the answer, truthfully. The first thing I did after my memories return was to spin and weave. I can't believe I went a whole month without it.
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Toph takes a sip as she listens. ]
Being without my bending sucked, [ she answers in blunt agreement. ] Did it feel really different to you, too, when it came back?
[ Hard to deny the truth of it when the whole world felt different to her. ]
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It was like I found a piece of my heart again. I love my magic, it's part of who I am. I didn't understand it when it came back to me at the end of the month, but now I do. I hope I never lose it again.
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It's not right that it could just get taken away like that, [ she complains, sincere frustration lining her words. ]
We still don't know what really happened, or why.
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How did they change my memories like that? Why did I have to go through the exercise of weaving them when other people aren't confused like this? I don't understand.
[ Sandry sounds equally frustrated. It's just not fair. ]
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--Wait, you said you're weaving them?
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[ Sandry pulls the woven cloth over. ]
I got a spinning wheel so I pictured my two different memories while spinning and spun them into thread. Then I wove the thread into separate blocks and separated them with a border of plain thread. I wasn't sure if it would work but my mind was much clearer after that. I did something similar with magic before, separating it out like that.
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[ Toph is nonplussed and completely amazed. She's not at all reluctant to call out cool things when she runs across them. ]
And you were trying to tell me thread magic isn't that cool? That's totally nuts, Sandry.
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It's not very practical, it only works for me. I don't think I could do it for someone else. I suppose it's a bit of a clever way to solve the problem, but only because it worked. You should see the things my sister Tris can do! Or Briar, or Daja. Tris is a weather mage, Briar is a plant mage, and Daja is a smithing mage. Tris can summon lightning bolts and holds tidal power in her hair, Briar can talk to plants and make them grow, and Daja created living metal. Though I suppose that last one was an accident.
[ Sandry is clearly very proud of her siblings. ]
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[ For obvious reasons. The rest of it all sounds different but similar to bending, or at least not out of the realm of stories. Also, Sandry going on about her siblings is cute, not that Toph's gonna say that. It's a nice change from her earlier sadness over her fake memories. ]
But usually the really impressive bending is the subtle stuff, so I'm guessing it's the same way for magic.
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Yes, it's like that, but also not? Daja made a prosthetic leg for someone with her living metal. I think that's not very subtle, though it had lots of details.